weight watchers weigh in #8

Last week: 194.4 lb
this week: 193.8 lb
loss of 0.6

and i got another monthly summary (i thought i only got them monthly but i guess maybe ill get them all of the time).  this one kind of makes me sad though.

ive only lost 3.6 pounds in a month?  pfft.  but looky at my activity points. that is going up. (did you know that with WW you are only supposed to lose 0.5-2.0 lbs a month? so im right on target)

ok.  so check this one out.  i took a screen shot.  those are my weeks for the active link.  see the grey line? that is my goal per day.  see how im over it every week? and how it is slightly adjusting upwards? so i guess im doing well with that.  some days i find myself crying cause i dont WANT to workout.  but that is completely normal for me.
heck the other day i craved a workout cause i felt so umm, what is the word, angry? frustrated, probably frustrated with work.    and i just wanted to go and push myself until i felt a bit better.  lets hope we get more days of WANTING to workout vs pushing myself (fake it until you make it right?)
I have some NSV to report but first my breakdown of points
still have 30 points per day (not looking forward to when that drops), plus i eat all activity points and all weekly points.
Friday: 58
Saturday: 36
Sunday: 42
Monday: 32
Tuesday: 34
Wednesday: 30
Thursday: 32
total 264/ average 37.7
so NSV.  just for those couponers out there (yes i love saving money) i went to staples for work purposes and spent 33 bucks and got a $10 off $30 at kohls (i asked my bossman if i could have it, since it was indeed work's coupon) and he was like sure (he isnt a coupon lover like me).  so last night i opted to go and look around at kohls.  they are having some great back to school deals.  i dont go to school anymore (thankfully, i hated every minute of college, probably cause i worked full time and went to school on top of that).  they have their levi jeans on sale buy one get one half off, at least that was the sign over the ones i tried on.  i like levi 515 (i think i means boot cut and low rise but not too low) i tried on a pair of size 10 (short) jeans, not only did they zipper but they were wearable in public (im also on the tall end of short and the short in levi's fit me perfectly, i also think levi jeans are made for chicks without butts, like me).  i did not purchase them because for a split second back in 2007 i was a size 10.  so i have size 10 pants already, almost new.
i did purchase two long sleeve shirts, i know wrong season but i loved the way they looked.  those are both size large.  i also purchased two work shirts for my husband.  he hates shopping and i hate how ratty he is looking in his work shirts lately.  he actually wore the one that i wasnt sure if he would like today.
anyway this week should be a breeze when it comes to WW besides my friend who is having a BBQ at her house (i told her i would bring a box of turkey burgers and she was like cool).  that is saturday.  nothing really up coming.

OT work

This is what Kreacher thinks of my OT.

sorry the pic is dark.  he forced himself to lay in between my legs when i was leaning over to look at something on my husbands computer (kickstarter? some dice bag he wanted to purchase-aka nerd stuff).
i should let you know that kreacher and I spend about 45 mins after i get home from work cuddling (before my husband gets home).  i didnt leave work until 5:45 (my normal time is 4).
i also upset mr kreach when i had to get up to go to the gym.
his happiness is connected to how much human contact he gets all day long.  he loves us all equally (ok i should let you know he gets a little trot in his steps when he hears my step sons voice).
OT work shouldnt exist in my current job situation, its more like lack of planning.  whatever, if they want to pay me time and a half for doing my normal job, that is fine with me.
and im proud of myself for hitting the gym.
did i mention my husband got me a kindle fire HD?  i only allowed him to get it for me cause it was on sale ($159) i thought they were more like 300 bucks. i got a cute case for it too.  

is this worth the points?

this time around I am not attending weight watchers meetings, but i have in the past (for this time i felt unwelcomed by the other members of the group, can someone explain this to me?  first i know i look very young (i am 33 but look about early 20's) but i felt judged-so i opted for online.   i mean i love the leader of the class i attended, so its not WW themselves that i have an issue with).
but in the past they had you question things are they worth the points value before you eat something.
let me tell you, that question pops into my head all of the time.
so yesterday we were at my in laws house for my father in laws b day (it is today actually). we were having a BBQ, with cheese burgers, hot dogs, potato skins (made in the oven) and chips.  so im trying to be super aware of what i am eating. they do not know that im doing weight watchers.
so i ate a cheese burger, i looked at the package (and snuck a bar scan of the package when i put my dishes in the sink but that was after i had already eaten it) and got the serving size from there.  my father in law is always watching his sugar intake (he is in his 60s) so usually they will have some type of fruit sitting out, it was watermelon.  im a fruit lover but i think water melon tastes like metal.  so i cant eat it.  last time we were there they had strawberries and cantaloupe, which i ate the strawberries.
so im being careful with what im eating.  ice cream gets pulled out.  i end up with probably 0.5 cup of ice cream.  they kept trying to throw apple pie on my plate but i kept defending it.  im not a huge pie lover (ok so i make it sound like i hate everything, but i do love food).
i start inputting the food into my app while everyone was eating their pie, that was when i snuck away to get a scan of the barcode from the potato skins.  6 F-ing points.
i was so sad.  i showed my husband and made a sad face.  he doesnt get it (he does not diet).  in my mind it plays out that 2 more points and i could have had an ice cream sundae from DQ with caramel sauce (8 points for the small).
anyway i just took this screen shot (two of them cause i ate so much food you cant see it all in one screen).

see how much i ate yesterday? i didnt even remember the corn on the cob part.  i dont know if the 7 points for the burger is right.  oh and see my 3 point dinner?  i ate that at 8pm and i wasnt even hungry.  i just didnt want to wake up this morning super hungry.  29 point lunch by the way.  i only get 30 points per day.
i have to be careful for the rest of this week, i only have 3 weekly points remaining.  that isnt a lot when you have 4 days left until they reset.  i guess i better be earning some more activity points.  2 of those points are from yesterday and one is from friday night (walking around the fair earned me one point)
i did hit the gym last night after we got home.
i should also write about the fair, i went there friday night with my friends.  i ate a sweet sausage and pepper sandwich (oh so good and 12 points, but worth every one of those points).  they have a stand where they fry items.  every year it is something different (well every year they have chicken nuggets and fries).  last year it was fried brownies, which i tried and i wasnt impressed with.  this year it was fried mac and cheese, bananas foster and oreos (separate items).  so my friends order mac and cheese (2 orders), banana foster, and fried mint oreos.  im offered a bite of each but decline cause i seriously just ate my sandwich.  i would have tried the oreos if they werent mint (not a fan of mint in food form, toothpaste or gum fine).  I also got donuts (fried in lard!!) for my husband and didnt eat one.  instead i focused my energy on kicking butt at bingo.  i did sneak a piece of cotton candy though.
im always trying to regroup and unfocus on food.  even though im always thinking about food.
and just for fun.  i got these from sam's club (free weekend)

my jimmy deans delights!! 6 points each and worth every one of them.  i eat one for breakfast every day.  they have different kinds (like on a bagel or with Canadian bacon), ive never pointed those out before. so i cant tell you what they are.

weight watchers weigh in #7

Last week: 195.4 lb
this week: 194.4 lb
loss of 1.0

overall a good week. i did exceed my points target by 1.  but i blame hormones for that, i really wanted the mini tootsie rolls, so i opted for 1/2 a serving (2 points instead of 4).  it also turns out that if i earn an activity point on a thursday night it gets dropped into the current weeks not pushed to friday like i thought it would be.
i have also back tracked on the clicking of those buttons (for the healthy checks).  i am really good at actually doing them, its just remembering to go back and click.  as far as i know i cannot do them on my iphone (anyone know if i am just not in the right menu?).  i pretty much have access to an actual computer every day all day long, so really it is me just not doing it.

my point break down for the week
30 points per day, all activity points and all weekly points used (plus 1 extra this week)
Friday: 31
saturday: 33
sunday: 55
monday: 40
tuesday: 36
wednesday: 35
thursday: 34
total: 264
average per day 37.7

normally i have my big points day on friday, but i was sick last friday (some type of stomach bug) and i was finishing out a dietbet (weigh in was sunday). i posted pics from that a day or two ago.  by the way i won that dietbet and my extra earnings was 1.67.  LOL.  it was a tiny tiny diet bet (4 people).  for now on i only take part in large games ( i have two games running right now).

since i now just finished my second month i have a monthly progress report:

i think this time the activity points earned is correct.  last month it was like you have earned 4 zillion points.  yeah that wasnt true.  10 sounds right on target.
as for my activelink.  i didnt hit my goal wednesday night. i was at 99%.  I did attempt to do a level 2 of the 30 day shred and as i was doing some of the workout my head was pounding.  so i stopped it halfway through and just played walk it out for 20 minutes.  i think the rest of the days im right on target.  at the end of my 12 week challenge im supposed to be earning 1 point per day.  that shows you how much i actually move at work (i sit at a desk almost all day).

so overall my standings are this:
starting weight: 208.6
current weight: 194.4
difference: 14.2 lbs
percentage: 6.8%

i havent had anyone notice a weight loss difference (heck i cannot even tell myself other than my size 12 pants are super loose). i remember at the WW meetings they would say 10% people start noticing, and you start noticing health benefits at 10%.  im sure in september when i get my blood drawn for my endocrinologist we will see a difference.

have you guys ever seen any of those weight loss tv shows? like biggest loser or extreme weight loss. and you always see the person breaking down in front of the camera about how hard it is.  that was me yesterday.

anyway my period started last night, so i should start to feel somewhat normal soon.  i was walking around yesterday with a scowl on my face (i was actually doing an impression of my cat kreacher as he is pooping, he just gets this horrible face on and no i wont take a pic of him while he is doing his business)

my weekend plans got shifted.  we were supposed to go to an indoor water park with the in laws, but my sister in law has to work (she does education at the camden aquarium so she is needed when the groups are coming in), so my father in law post poned, but he still wants to have a BBQ.  This is to celebrate father in laws b day.  we are doing this on sunday since my step son lives in philly and philly is actually closer to NJ than it is to west chester, so we just end up meeting step sons mother on the philly side (funny thing is that we meet at a strip club called cheerleaders, that was until i told them it was a strip club, now we meet at the burger king next to it) and then head home.

irritation

I try to keep a positive outlook on life (in general) but i tend to have issues with slight depression.  dont worry i wont be cutting my wrist or be overdosing on pills.  i deal with it. (i tried medication once, all it did was make me yawn like crazy, but the good thing was it killed my morning personality-i call her connie, connie is a bit of a jerk, she yells at my husband and the cats, meanwhile jaime remembers nothing) but i couldnt handle the yawning, so i stopped taking it (imagine that you yawn and not feel that little bit of relief, which causes more yawning).  even though my doc swore it was not a side effect, it was whatever depression drug starts with a Z (zoloft? i get drugs confused and this was back in 2006).  look it up on the internet, it says yawning.
so anyway right around the time i was trying the drug it was when my doc felt my thyroid and had me go for testing.  it took forever to get a diagnosis (my endos office is in high demand).  but i felt better after being on the medicine for a while.
anyway back to why im irritated.
i get to dietbet through my facebook (well log in through it).  so its linked to post whenever ive lost or gained weight.  cool whatever.  people like it.
my cousin writes that she loves me and hates me at the same time.  haha.  nice thanks.
i posted something back along the lines that losing weight is not easy and she just isnt around to hear me complain about what i want to eat vs what i do eat.
i dont want anyone to diminish my hardwork.  do they even know how many times i secretly cry in the inside cause i cant have peanut M&Ms. or how i bother my husband about going out for my large point lunch earlier than the place is open? and how my husband tells me im more food driven then my cat pepper-who is all about food?
trust me there are millions of things id rather do than level 2 of the 30 day shred, or go to the gym. or not eat the fair food.
i know the only reason im irritated is thanks to hormones.  hormones = jerkface
i also decided yesterday that i was going to start telling people that im barren when it comes to when are you having babies.  cause you know no one wants to hear about fertility issues.  and no i dont want to go through any more testings other than blood drawings.  and yes im losing weight to help the chances.

random thoughts

so im still somewhat new to blogger, i have a list of people i follow, sometimes that disappears on my front page and tells me i follow no blogs.  then it will reshow up.  i am not sure what im doing wrong there (and more than likely it is me).
so i was messing around with my phone the other day and took this pic of myself (i was attempting to do the typical facebook/blog photo, well that happened after i had something in my eye and i was trying to figure out what it was).

so i thought i looked a bit creepy so i sent it to my husband saying i was watching him.
anyway if you look at that pic you can see my eyelashes.  they are constantly in my eyes, i just want to rip them out.  i know i know, i used to get told that most women would kill for those eye lashes (i have a lot of hair in general-do you think i like getting waxed?)
so i started another diet bet.  i made a 1.67 for my last one (4 players at $25 each, 3 of us won so after the 20% is taken out kind of left you with nothing).  so i think for now on i only join larger games.  i was talking to my husband about how much they charge, 20% isnt really all too bad.  i mean they have to have servers and people who work there.  plus any time ive emailed them they have responded right away and then one a bit later with a "we are back up" which was when i couldnt log in with facebook.  i think the new one i joined is called sandy's kitchen (maybe sandi's) i think it has august in the title too.  so right now im doing two dietbets.  i need to weigh in for the new one tonight after work.
i have restarted my 30 day shred challenge.  i want to do the 30 day shred monday, wednesday and friday.  the other days i can either go to the gym or do another one of my many at home workouts.  i figure ill rotate them again, level 1 monday, level 2 wednesday and level 3 friday.  so far im not having any troubles hitting 100% of my daily goal.  so until i stop hitting that number (it ramps up with my activelink challenge) I will not bust my hump to workout.  i didnt actually finish yesterdays workout, the neighbors dog was out and the fair is in town and it was almost hit a few times, so i went to change into another shirt (perhaps less cleavage) to get the dog.  but the other neighbor got to him in time.
im still eating every point i could possibly get my hands on.  i know a lot of people on WW only eat their daily allowance, but pfft no thanks.  ill eat 30 points per day, plus my 49 per week and then whatever i earn in activity (3 points a week, fairly low, remember my activelink doesnt think that 30 day shred is enough of a workout to give me a point at least not level one).  and yes i will cry when it lowers me down to 29 points.

dietbet

Im really thinking of linking my blog to my dietbet.  maybe i could get a few more readers? 
anyway today was the end of dietbet 2.  i submitted my weigh in and it was verified (meaning i won).  there were only 4 people in the dietbet, looks like 3 of us made it.  i have known everyone from this dietbet for years (online only).  so i wanted everyone to win.  :)
im also in another dietbet (i will call dietbet three). dietbet three has over 900 players in it
so i wanted to post this:  my first dietbet, i started it a few days after i started weight watchers. june 18th according to dietbets website

207.8
and today

you can see that i have lost 12.8 pounds (in the second pic i have a little desk lamp making it brighter). my husband wanted me to point out my lack of pinky toe (my toe nail is super tiny, whenever i get a pedicure the ladies laugh at it). 
and you are required to submit full body shots
before

after

so i wanted to say thank you dietbet and thank you weight watchers for helping me lose weight.  overall im down a little over 6% of my body weight.  
after i weighed in my husband and i went out to lunch.  i ate 55 points (for the entire day).  my burger was awesome (it was my go to burger with goat cheese and avocado).  i also had an ice cream sundae from dairy queen (small with caramel sauce: 8 points).  remember that i eat all of my points.
anyway if you are a new reader leave me a link to your blog (if you have one).