updates

so there are a lot of things going on in my life.  first:  my bird had to get his toe amputated.  this is moonlight, he is my parakeet.  he almost bled to death a week ago today (he picked off his scab, dont worry the vet did the toe removal-he had an infection in his toe and it died). he is out of the isolation cage and back with his best friend Lerch (also a parakeet).  this was just in time cause lerch is growing back feathers and needs extra attention (as in grooming from his friend moonie).

i got a castle for my cats.  we call it castle buttlick.  this would be two of my three cats, kreacher is inside the castle (with the laser eyes) and pepper on the outside.  i got this photo after i reupped the catnip in the castle.

and the biggest news ever

construction at my house.  im getting rid of my (broken) pool.  they started friday, and yesterday and today are rain days.

other big news to report.  my step son turns 13 on thursday.  he is super excited. 

we are going to the balitmore aquarium on saturday and doing a behind the scenes shark tour.  im not a fan of sharks but i do like the aquarium.  the balitmore aquarium is about 2 hours away. 

this pic is from a few weeks ago, i beat my wii game called walk it out

so i took a pic of the screen to show everyone (and then i never posted it)

see all of the 100%

 

crazy amounts of calories.  i think the perfects cap out at that number by the way. see i played it for over 36 hours?  nuts.  i have restarted (well moved on to another new island-same one) an am working on it.  it probably took me 2 years to complete this one.  LOL. 

other than my random updates here ive been back at the gym full swing.  well the gym and playing dance central 3.  but im burning 500 calories.  i have yet to see any real movement on the scale.  but its not going up. 

I just downloaded a photobucket app on my cell phone, so i should remember to take a pic of my cals burned each day and post it.  i dont want to post that to facebook or to instagram cause i want to have a tiny bit of privacy.  haha. 

hacking away

I was 209.8 lbs this morning.  working my way down. 
i did have a good eating weekend, i even did workouts on saturday and sunday.  on Saturday I walked on the treadmill for 30 minutes.  sunday i worked out with the dance central 3 that i just purchased. 
i am thinking about trying the walking program i was doing before. i stopped after a while because my shins were killing me.  before i was walking at 4.0 for the alotted time.  maybe i should aim for 3.8 instead? 

goal progress?

i was 211.0 this morning (down 2.8 lbs) but this might be a fake weigh in.  ive been sick with the stomach bug since after dinner on tuesday.  Today is Thursday and i missed 2 days of work thanks to mr SB.  grr.  i wasnt able to get to the gym on monday, i started feeling off shortly after dinner, i dont normally head out to the gym until 8pm or so.  around 7:30 i was like ugh im not feeling right (and my husband had just gotten over the bug himself).  so at 8 i was like, yep im going to go to bed and hopefully wake up at 6:30am and not have puked my guts out.
so off to bed i went.  i made sure there was a clear path to the bathroom (i like to keep my clean laundry in the baskets at the top of the stairs-and yes im too lazy to fold my clothes, it gets done eventually, more like when i need laundry baskets to put the dirty clothes in).  at 10:30 pm i jolted away and ran to the bathroom, just in time.  almost threw up on a cat (why do they like the toilet so much).  spent the next 20 minutes crying (i cannot stand to throw up) and talking myself out of throwing up anymore.  and wanting to sleep.  not to mention the random fits of freezing or burning up. 
my husband was nice and gave me one of the gatorades i had gotten for him.  at least that took some of the sting out of my mouth. 
i laid back down for a few hours and was up again 2 times to throw up and 3 other times thinking it was going to happen. 
i ended up texting my bossman at 6am saying i wasnt going to be in that i was sick with the stomach bug.  he did end up calling me around 9:30am, asking me some billing question, like that couldnt wait?  then i was off yesterday too, i was just so tired. 
so today im eating with caution.  eating slow.  also allowing my insides (i keep calling whatever hurts my guts) to heal.  i wont go to the gym tonight, we will see about tomorrow, definately back to it on saturday. 
so if i get around to updating tomorrow if the scale has gone up i wouldnt blame it.  i barely ate anything tuesday and yesterday i had a milk shake and mac and cheese for dinner (which i regretted the mac and cheese two seconds after finishing it). 

pushing a goal?

i have a crazy goal,  i want to be 200 lbs or less for my b day (april 7).  looks like it is one day short of 7 weeks away.
as of this morning i was 213.8 lbs (i was 208 last week but i had a massive food binge weekend which shot me right back up.  i do realize probably at least 3 lbs of this will go away super quick, once it gets through my digestive system). 
so that is 2 lbs a week right? 
other than that ive been dealing with a death of a bird (parakeet, RIP buddy) and another sick bird (lerch he is healthy now, but we had to give him medicine for two weeks, he is also a parakeet-both had what i would call a bird cold-birds cant cough like humans, so their lungs get filled up with fluid and they suffocate, luckily for lerch the vets was open and took us right away) and one huge issue-my mother being flown into philly with what we thought was a stroke but it turned out to be a seizure.  she was in a coma for 2 days!!!!  luckily we live so close to philly and she was sent to a hospital that specializes in brain trauma.  i went to see her the thursday after she had the "event" (she went in on feb 4, so this would have been the 7th) and she was having issues remembering words. we saw her again that saturday and she was doing better (and out of the ICU) i just spoke to her on the phone she is allowed to go back to work 3 days a week but only for 4 hour shifts.  I am one of 4 children but my mother left us when i was 8 (im number 2, the others would have been 12, 7 and 3) but i feel like being her child falls squarly on my shoulders.  my brothers refuse to talk to her.  my oldest brother did let his girls call and talk to my mom for a minute (that would be their grandmother). 
anyway i will update often with my goal.  i should make fancy tickers and all of that, but maybe ill do that tonight after i get home from work. :)

Feb 1st weigh in

Jan 14ths weight: 213.0
Jan 24th weight (docs appointment): 210.8
Feb 1st Weight: 209.2
loss of 3.8 lb

Next weigh in (besides doc's appointments, which i have none planned right now, well not until May 31st) March 1st.  so 28 days to drop some weight. 

goals: back to the gym and working out to a set calorie goal 5 days a week. 
maybe hitting 2000 fuel points on my nike band (it seems hit or miss, some days when i work out i dont hit goal, other days when i dont work out I do hit goal). 
keep journaling (did awesome with this). 
stay within calorie range (1500 to 1800 per day).
and stick with the entire plan.

confessions of a lazy person

i should warn everyone, im a huge fan of memes (a meme is what the imagine above is called along with the caption before i knew what they were called i would call them LOLcats minus the cat).  i also love LOLcats too. 
but this entry is about me being lazy.  i force myself to do things all of the time that i hate doing.  such as waking up in the morning, im so a night owl.  i hate doing dishes but i know that it will only take me a max time of 5 minutes to unload and reload the dishwasher.  the sucky part about me being lazy is that the husband is also lazy, dare i say even lazier than me?  he would never do a chore if not promted.  we got into a fight a few weeks back, where i stated he didnt help around the house, so for the past few weeks he has been cooking dinner.  Ahh one less things for me to do.
my laziness extends to my working out.  i never WANT to go to the gym but i know if i do that i will feel better afterwards, i think the gym helps lift some of the grey-ness away-aka depression. 
yesterday was an awesome day for lazy me.  cause i worked from home, i didnt even change out of my PJs until 4pm (when i put on yoga pants and a t shirt to do a workout at home).  there was really no reason why i couldnt have gone to the Y last night.  but in my defense i did walk it out for 30 minutes.  walk it out is a game for the Wii , its a silly game but i am determined to beat it (unlock all buildings/songs/constellations with steps). 
the reason i worked from home yesterday was that it was snowing in the am and was supposed to continue all day and turn into rain at some point.  i wasnt really worried about my 20 minute commute to work, i was more worried about my commute home.  we had snow on friday and i didnt get home until 5pm, which i left at 3:50pm.  it does not take that long to get home. 
i need to write up a resources blog post-maybe ill give my recommendation on things i like.  such as workout videos (i originally typed tapes).  or maybe ill just do an all around likes page or like oprahs favorites thing.  if i was made of money id do give aways, but i am not.  :(  I will start a list today and write it up tomorrow.
i should set up one goal for tomorrow, get my butt to the gym. even if it is only 30 minutes, that is fine.  Also i want to do another month long EA challenge (i think there is a 2 in there somewhere). 

ditching the scale

i am ditching the scale.  i am only going to weigh in while at the doctors or the first of the month.  last weigh in was January 14th at 213.0 lb.  that was after a huge week long of im eating whatever the heck i felt like and not working out.  I had a endocrinologists appointment on thursday (i will write about that in a second) and with clothes on i weighed 210.8 lb.  so I am doing something right. 
Still counting calories, still working out.  just aiming for a deficit every day.  i get my calorie counts from this website http://www.caloriecontrol.org/healthy-weight-tool-kit/weight-maintenance-calculator-women 
i always put that i am sedentary too, which im really not.  but i use my calorie count from my heart rate monitor and add that to my daily allotment.  then subtract the amount of calories i ate during the day and come up with a total deficit.  i hope for 350 calories or more each day.  the weight loss will be slow. 
it has been so nice not having to weigh in every morning.  i dont beat myself up over nothing.  plus since im only weighin in once a month i am almost guaranteed a loss.
SO, endocrinologist appointment.  i see her thanks to my thyroid being messed up.  i have hashimotos disease, which means my body is attacking my thyroid.  so i see her a few times a year, last time i saw her was 4 months ago.  my insulin level went from 22 down to 16 (it should be under 10).  I was prescribed metformin (this is what happens when you mention that you havent been on birth control for years and haven't gotten pregnant yet-and you have PCOS).  i took the medicine for about 1 month and stopped.  She had thought my numbers went down due to the medicine, but oh well.  I have been experiencing hives on an almost daily basis (whenever i get out of the shower or use water) so we are trying 75 micrograms of levothyroxide instead of 50 micrograms (actually i was taking 75 monday, wednesday and fridays).  ive always been good at the morning medicines but not at the night medicine (the night medicine is metformin-its extended release, i tried this stuff back when i was 21 and it ripped apart my stomach, so after a few months of that i gave up, so far this extended release hasn't done it). 
i like my endocrinologist and i like her nurse practitioner, but it seems like the NP seems to be popping babies out like crazy.  but she did ask me if i have gotten my period yet, ive never been that lucky girl to not have their period with PCOS.  i guess i am 1 of a few hundred people she sees.